Growing up, I faced a lot of rejection and isolation. Many of my peers excluded me, mocked me, and took advantage of my kindness. As a result, I carried deep insecurity and self-doubt, always feeling like I didn’t fit in. I felt invisible, lonely, and unimportant. These wounds followed me into adulthood, affecting my friendships and relationships. Many of them ended in rejection, leaving me feeling unloved and unwanted.

Eventually, I entered a relationship with someone who had a past filled with hurt and darkness, just like mine. We thought marriage was the right step, but our relationship was built on fear and insecurity. His job took him away often, and the loneliness weighed heavily on me.

During this time, I began experiencing severe anxiety and panic attacks that were so overwhelming I would freeze in fear, unable to move or leave my house. I had to quit my job because my emotional instability took over my life. Despite seeking help through ER visits, medications, therapy, and psychiatric appointments, the panic attacks only worsened. As my emotional health deteriorated, so did my marriage. In my desperate search for love and attention, I made choices that damaged the relationship even more, and eventually, we divorced.

After the divorce, I tried to numb the pain by ignoring the anxiety and turning to partying, drinking, and staying out late. I spiraled into one of the darkest seasons of my life, feeling completely lost and empty.

But God wasn’t done with me. In the midst of that darkness, I reached out to my best friend for help, and she invited me to Vous Church. It was there that I encountered Jesus in a way I never had before. I didn’t just learn about Him — I met Him. I realized that in all my searching for love, validation, and worth, Jesus had been there all along, waiting for me to surrender my brokenness to Him.

At Vous Church, I found more than just a community — I found a family. A place where I didn’t have to try to fit in or fear judgment. I could be myself, fully and authentically, and still be loved and accepted. The fear, insecurity, and loneliness that once controlled my life have been replaced with peace, belonging, and confidence in God’s love for me.

In June 2025, at VousCon, God met me powerfully again. During worship, I felt a deep conviction that He was asking me to trust Him fully — to lay the medication down. It wasn’t a reckless decision; it was a moment of faith and obedience. From that day on, I’ve been medication-free. The journey hasn’t been easy — withdrawal has been physically and emotionally intense — but God has been incredibly present. I’ve felt His nearness in the hardest moments, His peace in the middle of fear, and His strength carrying me when I’ve had none left.

Today, I stand here still in the process, still walking it out, but with unshakable hope. God has turned my story of rejection into one of acceptance, my fear into faith, and my loneliness into belonging. I know without a doubt that I am deeply loved, never forsaken, and that He is working all things for my good — even the parts of the story that are still being written.